Alright, I'm alive...sorry I haven't been on lately, but I've been so busy....calculus homework, AP tests coming up, my computer was packed (I'm on my laptop), prom is soon...I'm over loaded...I mean literally...I've got at least 350 deviations to check....so yeah...I'll get through it all, but it'll take awhile...anyways....I got my braces off!!! I'm so happy...aside from that....I'm alive, and I'll be back in full swing in no time--that is after I get caught up....

Ok--so nothing serious...I'm on Spring break at my grandma's house...I finally got caught up with all the deviations.....it was ridiculous how many I had, but that's what I get for watching so many people--keep up the good work everyone...I'll probably be on late at night (like so)....(I don't have any messaging system here--so just note me if you wanna talk)...I'll do a better Journal after Spring Break and I'm at home....


plus--Calculus homework=killer....


sick no more!!!



(by the way, tears are from the fanfiction...it was so depressing...if you guys want a link to it, go to my favorites and find the piece called: Once and Future Taiyoukai...or go here: [link] )

Why am I cursed so? How can I be here yet not be accepted? Why am I so rejected? What did I do to earn such a priviledge?

My Response to My Own Problems:

Fuck the world and everyone in it...no I'm not part of this world, and even if I was, I wouldn't be able to talk to you...what's the point in telling you anything when you don't really want to listen...If you really wanted to talk to me, then you would tell me how you really feel about me....I'm tired of being led on by your game and everyone elses...Fuck the world and everyone in it

Damn the dreams of all, and may no one sleep happy...I love my nightmares...they're always reality...I'm sleeping my life away and don't expect me to wake any time soon...it's not like you'd actually tell me how you feel anyways...and I guess you're not even that much of a friend to me...that's why I don't believe in hope anymore...because if you were, you wouldn't have mislead me in the first place...Damn the dreams of all, and may no one sleep happy

Life--

Ok--so that big project that I've been ranting about needing a good grade on (the Mock Congress one)...well, I got my grade back on it--99 bitches....beat that....and that is worth at least 2 test grades...I'm getting an A in that class~wh00t!

Aside from that nonsense...track and field starts up Monday...man am I going to be sore....I didn't work out at all over the winter...oh well, I'll get used to it like I always do...with track starting up, I'm not going to have much time to be on dA, but don't worry~I'll make time for it (I'm too addicted to just stop ^^)

Even farther aside from that--I'm very confused (hence my latest deviation)...some interesting things are happening that I wouldn't expect to happen...and especially not from that particular person....and apart from those happenings, it's official-me and my "friend", aren't really friends anymore...and it wouldn't be so bad, but the friends I had before her are deserting me because of her in a way...so I really don't know what to do, other than say "Fuck it, I'm not going to be here next year anyways"...but whatev...if anyone wants to know more about my involuntarily dramatic life, go ahead and ask away...

Weekend events--

Ok...so I still haven't got those pics from Katsucon yet, but I'm working on it and I'll get it all posted up as soon as I can....other than that, there aren't any plans for this weekend, except for maybe going over to a friend's house so they can mess with my hair like I told them that they could...lol...I don't know what it is with him and my hair, but whatev...

this upcoming weekend (not the one that's in progress), I don't really have plans...I'm probably going to be doing community service for the boy scouts...I only need like 20 more hours (still) and then I'm completely done...I can't wait to be done with that nonsense, it'll be so sweet to not have to worry about it...plus a seal on my diploma in June...it's all for the looks...

Status--

Ok, so I still haven't finished that one poem...but I'll get around to it...gotta be in the mood to write it--don't know when that'll be...beats me, but whatever...but I have been busy with other writings-->check my deviations for proof you nonbelievers (for I shall shun you, lol)....it's all good....I might never finish that poem for all I know...but whatev, it's my life and my writing so get over it already~~~(hmm, just a little possessive and egocentric today I see, lol)

What to do?--

The biggest issue in my life right now is what am I going to do (and I don't mean with my life either)...I really am lonely I guess--now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I need people, but I don't like to be entirely alone...I'm thinking about just kinda settling down as a person and become more calm~but that just isn't me...I don't know what I'm going to do...anyone have any suggestions? and aside from that...if you read my life section, I'm just a little confused about recent events...oh my...I need help and I'm open to everything...

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First 10 people to respond get featured in my journal (big deal or not, I'm not sure...) but the rule is, you have to do this too, and feature me as your first person in your journal...the first person that I'm featuring doesn't count as a respondant (means that there are still 10 spots)...basically a publicity thing for everyone (I need all the publicity I can get...)...have fun!!

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Life--

Ok--so that big project that I've been working on forever (Mock Congress) is finally over...got that done and handed in and participated in on Valentine's Day...I got so much extra credit on that nonsense that it isn't funny...extra points for dressing up like a senator, extra points for a notebook cover, and extra points for speaking during the event...I better have passed that or I'm going to be pissed to no end...

Aside from that nonsense...I decided which one I'm doing out of my two choices (track or Pit)...I picked track...so yeah...what ever...so my Valentine's Day poem request sort of thing was a complete and total failure...not a single request--I know I'm not the best writer, but I didn't know I was that bad--EPIC FAIL....jk, I think (at least this my excuse) is that I don't have enough popularity to even be trying that stuff yet, so yeah...whatever, it really doesn't bug me too much because I was really busy with my Mock Congress nonsense....and I made a decision on my other two choices also (home or not)...I'm going to Omaha--Look out Nebraska, here I come....it's gonna be sweet

Even farther aside from that--my parents are out of town until Friday evening (w00t!) so I'm completely going to be bored this entire week--I'm not going to have anyone to bug, oh well~~I'm going to be online all week though, so go ahead and drop me an IM

Weekend events--

OMG--so I got invited to Katsucon (kinda last minute) by my dear friend Alex Soler (if you guys read any of my personal junk-she's my fav artist)...It was such a blast--best time of my life...the only down side is that I spent all of my money...oh well...I've got sweet souvenirs now....so I was browsing the artist square and I saw at least a dozen people that are on dA...I was completely spazzing...it is a small world after all isn't it?...I didn't really cosplay (dress up in a costume for you people who don't know) because it was last minute so I just threw on my fox tail I got from the Renaissance fair (yep, I fixed it finally)...I went as a Kitsune in checkered knee-high socks, brown and cream striped gloves, a FMA t-shirt (which I later changed into a new shirt I bought), and a Jack the Pumpkin King Hoodie...if anyone else was there--I was the one with the Deku Link (with the big head made of tape)...yep Alex went as Deku Link from Legend of Zelda, Majora's Mask....I took lots of pictures, so as soon as I get mine from Alex, I'll put them up for you guys...anyways, I'm just really happy that there are freaks out there like me...(P.S. yay for Yaoi!!)

aside from katsucon...I didn't really do anything except stay up late and play video games (typical teenager right?)...but don't think I'm a total bum, I did help clean the house...even though it was unwillingly, I still did it...

this upcoming weekend, I don't really have plans...I'm probably going to be doing community service on Saturday for the boy scouts...I only need like 20 more hours and then I'm completely done...I can't wait to be done with that nonsense, it'll be so sweet to not have to worry about it...plus a seal on my diploma in June...it's all for the looks...

Status--

Ok, so I still haven't finished that one poem...but I'll get around to it...gotta be in the mood to write it--don't know when that'll be...beats me, but whatever...

What to do?--

The biggest issue in my life right now is what am I going to do (and I don't mean with my life either)...I really am lonely I guess--now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I need people, but I don't like to be entirely alone...I'm thinking about just kinda settling down as a person and become more calm~but that just isn't me...I don't know what I'm going to do...anyone have any suggestions? I'm open to everything...

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First 10 people to respond get featured in my journal (big deal or not, I'm not sure...) but the rule is, you have to do this too, and feature me as your first person in your journal...the first person that I'm featuring doesn't count as a respondant (means that there are still 10 spots)...basically a publicity thing for everyone (I need all the publicity I can get...)...have fun!!

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